Jai Ma Jai Jai Ma

Yesterday was Amma’s birthday. Yesterday was also a meeting with Tim, my admissions rep from University of Phoenix. We went through all the financial aid process and managed to get me approved for more than I need for this first year of school. It isn’t much more than I need, but it’ll do, so I’m happy.

This feels like a pretty big accomplishment to me. The last few times I entered school it required a parent to co-sign on the loans. No need for that now, it seems. ūüôā

Dhanyawaad Sri Sri Mata-devi-ji!

Would you rather…

I’ve been debating something…

I work in the cancer field. I see people all the time receiving bad news. Terminal news. There’s no cure for cancer, generally speaking, and so any diagnosis of cancer is likely/potentially fate-sealing news. Sometimes people have a better chance than others…many many people with cancer, whether sooner or later, die of it. They often have little time,¬†no choice, and in many cases they have¬†no hope of escaping it.

I think of this often. Something else¬†I think of often is HIV/AIDS. Many of my community are diagnosed with this.¬†Thirty years ago, much like cancer, it meant an automatic death sentence. Often, at least in the beginning, people didn’t survive long after being diagnosed. Now, it’s more a condition than a condemnation…many medicines are available for those afflicted and lifespans of the infected have increased from sometimes less than a year to decades. I’ve known a number of HIV positive folks who have managed their diagnosis for multiple decades. Still, though, for most (uneducated) people there are outdated perceptions-stigmas-still associated with HIV/AIDS.

Blending these two illnesses in the mixing bowl that is my mind, I often wonder which would be worse to have. Something there’s no cure for, the treatment of which invariably makes you sick as a dog, and which will almost 100% be certain to claim your life…Or something which is now quite manageable, which is nowdays hardly more than an STD, but which comes loaded an entire society’s dose of stigma.

<sigh>

Om Sri Ganeshaya Namaha

I thought it would be fitting to title the initial post here in honor of my Ganesham-without¬†Whom no decent Hindu begins any endeavor. I also¬†seek my dear Amma’s¬†blessings on this work. Om Amrteshwaryei¬†Namah.

This is my first post here…I have no idea where this will lead, there’s usually a lot on my plate, definitely always much on my mind, but if nothing else¬†I’m hoping to find an escape from typical “social networking” sites. I find myself sucked in, and above all wasting time-if not just arguing with others.

This place is for my experiences, opinions and lessons learned as I go. And while I’m glad to share all of this with others, this¬†is all mine. I’ll pretty much say what I want here and if you disagree you’re more than welcome to let me know so long as you understand that at least one of two things will result:

1) I’ll¬†debate my point with you,¬†fairly relentlessly. When I’m wrong or unsure of something you’re not likely to know because¬†I usually just keep¬†my mouth shut. This means that if I’m talking about something, I’m pretty sure¬†I’m correct-mostly if not entirely. As a result many may think I’m a Besserwisser(German: know-it-all). You may openly¬†disagree with my¬†words, and I encourage you to for the sake of having me check my own knowledge, but unless you make a REALLY great case I’m likely to stay put in my thoughts. This sounds rigid and unsympathetic-I’ve¬†been accused of as much-but the truth is, I’m very very careful with my thoughts and opinions. Besides, this is a great way for¬†folks to help each other grow.¬† I’m not at all opposed to my thoughts being challenged.

In the event I realize I’ve been wrong about something, or otherwise choose to edit my view/opinion, I’ll do it and I’ll¬†do it openly-with apologies if warranted.

2) If you disagree with me, and¬†communication thereafter doesn’t seem fruitful, I’ll be editing your input at that time. I think I’ve actually done this maybe twice in my entire life because I value the input of others so very much. By this, though,¬†I mean deleting said input. This isn’t so much out of censoring your “voice” or eliminating variance from what I view to be correct as it is about controlling my own mind. I tend to ruminate in negative thoughts/emotions when resolve isn’t timely. Again this place is mine. ūüôā

Having now provided a make-shift disclaimer, I’ll close. See you around. Om Shanti Om